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Existing within a reality constantly is a nightmare. your corporeal form is always existing. You never stop existing until you die. The fact that this cannot be escaped, even temporarily, is tiresome.

I often wish I could just stop existing, just for a little while, at my own whim. To me, this sounds like pure bliss. A short vacation in nothing.
Life keeps going while you temporarily stop and disappear, like a familliar face fading away into a crowd.

And just like that, you're back. Whenever you decide, whenever you want. What would it be like? Existing in a black void? No thoughts or feelings? People just might say "that's what drugs are for.", I have never been interested in drugs. I long for something like this that exists not only in the mind but in reality.

Although, now that I think about this, if this were real, it would be addicting to stop existing and to phase out of life. I know I would get addicted to it. Being non-existent for days only to reappear in my bed like nothing ever happened.

Hello. This site is a void for me to scream into. I have nowhere else to scream, as frankly I'd not like to bother the people I know about these things.